A glimpse of my teen years

Hello! :) Since i haven't been blogging much, i created a scrapblog for u guys to take a look. :D Creating this took up so much time. Gotta go back to studying. See how monotonous my life is right now but it'll all be over soon and u'll see something NEW from me! :) taaa!

Nothing could calm me down, it seems

I'm sure all form 5 students are as nervous as me now. Because i couldn't breathe properly the whole day.

I feel like i could give up already and just say "whatever lah, just let spm be over quickly already!"
Its the pressure from everyone, teachers, parents, students, government, life who take SPM so importantly that it became students' burden. It's like they made us take it this way.

But i know when this important moment of my life is over, i won't be saying "owh now the thing i've been working for is over, i have nothing to look forward anymore. I am gonna miss it" like i've said for every other important stuff. But SPM is not what i'll miss, fo' sure! :D

So whatever it is, good or bad (hopefully good), let it be over already.

Good luck, ya'll! :)

When it shatters...

...i can't drive.

Was sleeping so soundly this morning and mum came in to wake me up to take pictures of my car. Click the images below to enlarge. I didn't dare touch it because once something hits on it again, it might shatter into million pieces. So i couldn't even take my P license out.

And what happened? Apparently those ppl who cut the grass using those long stick grass cutter thing, the one that spins? While they were cutting, i think a stone hit the screen.

Looks really bad right?

It really looked super fragile! Don't even dare to take my P license out.

Brian loh, if u're reading this, it means no bubble tea! haha

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

Sometimes i ask how people can be so good at what they are doing. Now i wonder myself what i'm good at. What i can do so brilliant that nobody else could do. Maybe u guys see some traits in me that i can't see it myself? Maybe u wanna tell me what i'm good at? :)

Talking? I've seen people talked more than me.
Writing? I can't even write a daily post.
Make people laugh? Comedians can do that.
Be a listener? I COULD DO THAT! :)

What i realized - I don't show people that i'm sad. Friends don't label me as emo. I don't think they see my sentimental side either, do they? I put on a smile for whatever situation but when people meet me for the first time, they say i looked snobbish. hmm.. not many have seen me cried. Those who have, its either i'm comfortable with u around or u just happen to be there. Or maybe people don't see that dark side of me is because i don't know how to express my feelings? I'm such a stoner that my face shows nothing? Ahh, maybe thats how i got "stoningfreak" :)

"I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show. And i thought that being strong meant never losing your self-control" - Keith Urban

I think i'm more of an observer. I don't allow myself to be predictable. I predict people! haha but that doesn't mean i judge. Or i judge less. Because i don't want people around me to be judgmental in return.

But then yet again, who can't do what i just said right? All of you could put on a fake smile when u're not in ur best mood. And everyone can be a great listener if they want to too. And not be so judgmental, just step into their shoes and think like them :)

My fortune cookie (no, i don't need my daily dosage of fortune cookies) once said, i'll be a great philanthropist (one who loves mankind, and seeks to promote the good of others) in my later years. Well, thats something encouraging! I hope to be one. At least when i look back someday, i could yell, Hey! i was one helpless lady back then and million lives have been touched by me now =D

I think i know what i need. I need encouraging friends. I want people who say encouraging words and remind me of what i'm good at or what's important to me, what kind of heart that is beating in my chest. I wanna know i'm good and capable in something important. I wanna do something so spectacular that i realize what i want in life. Or rather, my life.

I know we are all worth something. We just need a little of someone to remind us what.

Now did i get you wondering what u're good at yourself? :D After all, whatever that separates us from the rest made us us right? :)

I and Love and You

Two songs i just heard from One Tree Hill season 7 episode 6 & 7 and i like it! :)
Singalong! but on second thought, u guys might not like country. Owh well, just listen then ;D


The Avett Brothers - I and Love and You

Load the car and write the note
Grab your bag and grab your coat
Tell the ones that need to know
We are headed north

One foot in and one foot back
But it don't pay, to live like that
So i cut the ties and i jumped the tracks
For never to return

Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in
Are you aware the shape I'm in
My hands they shake my head it spins
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in

When at first I learned to speak
I used all my words to fight
With him and her and you and me
Oh but its just a waste of time
Yeah its such a waste of time

That woman shes got eyes that shine
Like a pair of stolen polished dimes
She asked to dance I said it's fine
I'll see you in the morning time

Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in
Are you aware the shape im in
My hands they shake my head it spins
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in

Three words that became hard to say
I and love and you
What you were then, I am today
Look at the things I do

Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in
Are you aware the shape I'm in
My hands they shake my head it spins
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in

Dumbed down and numbed by time and age
Your dreams to catch the world, the cage
The highway sets the travelers stage
All exits look the same

Three words that became hard to say
I and love and you
I and love and you
I and love and you


Susie Suh - Feather of the Wind

Looking at the sea again
Tides that rise and fall and then rise again
My love floats like a feather in the wind
Catch me if you can
Catch me

I don't even know just what i'd do
If you found your way back through
Clear all the cob webs that we weaved
Making room for you and me

There's a road to my heart
Follow signs through the ride
When you see all the lights glowing bright,
Beside the dark and all
You know you found me

Looking at the city escape
Tiny little bubbles sparkling in the night
I don't think its ever too late
To cut the ties that bond us to our lies.

I don't even know just what i'd say
If you found your way back
Clear all the cob webs that we made
Wishing for you to stay

There's a road to my heart
Following signs through the ride
When you see all the lights glowing bright,
Beside the dark and all
You know you found me

Looking at the sea again
Tides that rise and fall and then rise again
My love floats like a feather in the wind
Catch me if you can
Catch me

Like Titanic, but this ship won't sink

Maiden Voyage

(Graduation Prom 2009)

Board the Graduation ship with us to celebrate the end of high school! It'll make its maiden voyage on the 17th of December 2009. Meet us at The Legend Hotel, Kuala Lumpur starting from 7.00 pm till midnight!!


The theme for this spectacular graduation prom night will be, yes, you've guessed it, its "MAIDEN VOYAGE"


Thinking of Titanic? But i assure you, this ship sure won't sink! ;) Get ready to pour your heart out as you bid farewell to your loved ones.

Come in your best FORMAL suits and dresses as there will be TWO categories for Prom King and Prom Queen this year. Think you are eco-friendly? Or the best dressed in town? Go ahead and fight for these titles :-

- Best Dressed Prom King & Prom Queen
- Most Eco-Friendly Prom King & Prom Queen


Nominees of the "Best Dressed Prom King & Queen" will be announced on that night itself whereas the candidates for "Most Eco-Friendly Prom King & Prom Queen" can be nominated online. [More news on that SOON!]


Are you jumping in excitement already? ;D Click here to know more about ticket sales and activities that will be going on that night.


Don't miss out and i hope to see you there! :) Everyone is invited!

A joke is a very serious thing

I remember i wrote my own New Year's resolutions this year. Let's see if i'm living up to it? :)

Well, here's my 8th of January post.


I said

- Less tv, more study (but the amount of homework i get from skool everyday is crazy!)
*I do watch less tv now :) Accomplished.

- Pay attention to all my lessons in class especially history, chem and physics
*That didn't work =P Not accomplished.

- Will not procrastinate on homework
*Yeap i did most of my homework. Half accomplished? :)

- Wake up at 4am every morning for at least 2 weeks before exams start (i absorb better in the morning)
*Still doing it. Maybe not every morning. Half accomplished.

- Able to drive after my birthday
*Accomplished! :D

- Make losers feel less sorry for themselves. How? By slapping them =)
*Obviously not accomplished. i can't slap them

- Make peace
*Accomplished. I care less about drama and what ppl think of me. Those who wanna start a war with me, try harder! :)

- Aim for straight As in SPM
*Aiming, aiming! Half accomplished.

So i've completely accomplished 2 out of 8. The year hasn't come to an end yet. I can still work on those half accomplished, eh? ;-)

I really don't know the importance of high school or shall i say i don't know the importance of studying the subjects we are not interested in. Wanna enlighten me?

when they all tell me its over..

Tune up my playlist everytime i paste lyrics! ;-)

And because i like Clay Aiken. I'd like someone to sing this to me one day. haha :D

I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have

And because I like Bethany Joy Galeotti's voice.

I'd like to say I make good use of my time while you've been away
And it's true
I've been at my piano everyday thinking of you


They talk around
I hear them whisper
It's the funniest thing really
They think you're gone forever
I know the truth
It's just getting hard to believe it


And they all tell me it's over
Even the stars are aligned
And I


I follow the sign so clearly and still I fall in
The quicksand's pulling me down
I follow the sign so clearly and still they catch me
The quicksand's pulling me down


I'm not the same
I can't sleep nights and now I'm calling your name when I do
And yet without you they say I get on better
BetterBetter


When they all tell me it's over
I'll damn the Gods until the stars are aligned
And I


I follow the sign so clearly and still I fall in
The quicksand's pulling me down
I follow the sign so clearly and still they catch me
The quicksand's pulling me down


Look at my life and look at my face
Can't you see my heart bleeding down my sleeve


You're holding my hand and holding my heart
But I just wanna feel your breath inside me so I can breathe


Somewhere in the distance I catch a spark
A grace
A hope
Something that makes me feel like I'm alive


It's never too soon
It's never too late so I start screaming out
I see your face
I see your hand reaching down and I yell to you
And I say


I follow the sign so clearly and still I fall in
The quicksand's pulling me down
I follow the sign so clearly and still they caught me
The quicksand's pulling me down


I follow the sign so clearly and still I fall in
The quicksand's pulling me down
I know you can feel me rising
And I'm on fire but they keep on pulling me out
Out


Look at my life and look at my face
And look where I've come to get to this place with you

Sitting there at your feet and rest in your arms
And listen to your beat

I Can't Help It

I am such a useless blogger.

Because i haven't blogged for say..3 weeks? =(
But not because i don't want to.

Everytime i have something in mind to blog about,

I tell myself not to touch my laptop and study.

And i'm finally blogging because as what the title says, i can't help it :)

Because...

Because...

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST :D yes, be happy for me cause i am.

I failed my slope once so its such a relieve that i don't need to go through lessons and face fear again. :)

When i was 15, i can't wait to drive and here i am now available to drive legally. hehe..

I'm not bragging, my point is that time flies faster every year.

I know, i know, u ppl hear that all the time but it is! Time does fly faster EVERY year.

And soon, u'll see me leaving high school.

But lets talk about something nearer. Something more terryfying. haha

SPM is just bloody next month. But i'm glad i finished on the 8th of December.

Still have time for me to think about Christmas, my favourite season of the year :)

But that means i won't be able to watch New Moon once it premiers. Bum much! :(

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