
Sometimes i ask how people can be so good at what they are doing. Now i wonder myself what i'm good at. What i can do so brilliant that nobody else could do. Maybe u guys see some traits in me that i can't see it myself? Maybe u wanna tell me what i'm good at? :)
Talking? I've seen people talked more than me.
Writing? I can't even write a daily post.
Make people laugh? Comedians can do that.
Be a listener? I COULD DO THAT! :)
What i realized - I don't show people that i'm sad. Friends don't label me as emo. I don't think they see my sentimental side either, do they? I put on a smile for whatever situation but when people meet me for the first time, they say i looked snobbish. hmm.. not many have seen me cried. Those who have, its either i'm comfortable with u around or u just happen to be there. Or maybe people don't see that dark side of me is because i don't know how to express my feelings? I'm such a stoner that my face shows nothing? Ahh, maybe thats how i got "stoningfreak" :)
"I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show. And i thought that being strong meant never losing your self-control" - Keith Urban
I think i'm more of an observer. I don't allow myself to be predictable. I predict people! haha but that doesn't mean i judge. Or i judge less. Because i don't want people around me to be judgmental in return.
But then yet again, who can't do what i just said right? All of you could put on a fake smile when u're not in ur best mood. And everyone can be a great listener if they want to too. And not be so judgmental, just step into their shoes and think like them :)
My fortune cookie (no, i don't need my daily dosage of fortune cookies) once said, i'll be a great philanthropist (one who loves mankind, and seeks to promote the good of others) in my later years. Well, thats something encouraging! I hope to be one. At least when i look back someday, i could yell, Hey! i was one helpless lady back then and million lives have been touched by me now =D
I think i know what i need. I need encouraging friends. I want people who say encouraging words and remind me of what i'm good at or what's important to me, what kind of heart that is beating in my chest. I wanna know i'm good and capable in something important. I wanna do something so spectacular that i realize what i want in life. Or rather, my life.
I know we are all worth something. We just need a little of someone to remind us what.
Now did i get you wondering what u're good at yourself? :D After all, whatever that separates us from the rest made us us right? :)







