Went to skool happily today..didn't know why. haha Was all hyper in skool and came up with something awesome.
It may sound moronic to say "i was hyper, so i wrote something emo", but i did! haha I took out a piece of paper and asked Dionne to write it with me =)
*click the pic to enlarge*
By Juli & Dionne
I'm seventeen and i'm capable of going crazy. Spent the whole day in skool writing a whole full length of crap.
Note, we were laughing when we wrote this. We don't need any therapy!
*Read it in a dramatic way and imagine it*
Dear Diary,
My cheeks are wet from my tears. It pierced my heart too deep till a point of no return. The sky suddenly seem so grey like all the heavy clouds are going to fall. I'm sitting under a tree in an empty field with only moving trees accompanying me. On the ground, there lay a razor blade calling out to me. I know deep down inside that this isn't the right thing to do as I pick the razor blade up and direct it to my wrist. I have no courage to slit the razor blade across but the love of my life is in the arms of another girl. I can't imagine how its like for her to have him in her arms when it was supposed to be mine. How can he fall for someone who doesn't love him the way I do? How is she better than me? I lost my love to someone like her. Like her! It's cold out here, darling. I need you to hold me. How did we let go of something so special? Something we'll never have again. So sad but true, for me there's only you. Come back to me darling, come back! This is too much for me to take, I can't deal with it anymore. How can I go on without you? You are the missing piece of the puzzle of my heart. My shirt is soaked with tears, my vision is blurred and the pain is excruciating. I need to direct the pain somewhere else to see how much it bleeds. Its like the adrenaline, the pain is a sudden rush. As the clouds darken, the sorrow in me is deeper. The waves of flashback hit me as I remember the picture of us together on my rooftop watching the fireworks as it was the start of a new year. It wasn't too long ago. How did everything just fall apart? Lies, doubts, and rejection begin to build up in me. Without you in my arms, I feel an emptiness in my soul. And now that you're gone darling, I've no desire to find another. I am a drifter without a home, a solitary bird in flight to nowhere. Your absence makes me wish that I was never brought into this place. You once told me "Till death do us apart". But as far as i know, you're still alive. Well, I've always kept my vows and I don't wish to live anymore.
The line that you said to me keeps replaying in my head over and over again - till death do us apart, Till Death Do Us Apart... TILL DEATH...DO US APART.
Goodbye, I love you!
PS : I have fallen for someone who was taken away from me. But its okay, I'll always be watching you.
XOXO,
Love