A glimpse of my teen years

Hello! :) Since i haven't been blogging much, i created a scrapblog for u guys to take a look. :D Creating this took up so much time. Gotta go back to studying. See how monotonous my life is right now but it'll all be over soon and u'll see something NEW from me! :) taaa!

Nothing could calm me down, it seems

I'm sure all form 5 students are as nervous as me now. Because i couldn't breathe properly the whole day.

I feel like i could give up already and just say "whatever lah, just let spm be over quickly already!"
Its the pressure from everyone, teachers, parents, students, government, life who take SPM so importantly that it became students' burden. It's like they made us take it this way.

But i know when this important moment of my life is over, i won't be saying "owh now the thing i've been working for is over, i have nothing to look forward anymore. I am gonna miss it" like i've said for every other important stuff. But SPM is not what i'll miss, fo' sure! :D

So whatever it is, good or bad (hopefully good), let it be over already.

Good luck, ya'll! :)

When it shatters...

...i can't drive.

Was sleeping so soundly this morning and mum came in to wake me up to take pictures of my car. Click the images below to enlarge. I didn't dare touch it because once something hits on it again, it might shatter into million pieces. So i couldn't even take my P license out.

And what happened? Apparently those ppl who cut the grass using those long stick grass cutter thing, the one that spins? While they were cutting, i think a stone hit the screen.

Looks really bad right?

It really looked super fragile! Don't even dare to take my P license out.

Brian loh, if u're reading this, it means no bubble tea! haha

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

Sometimes i ask how people can be so good at what they are doing. Now i wonder myself what i'm good at. What i can do so brilliant that nobody else could do. Maybe u guys see some traits in me that i can't see it myself? Maybe u wanna tell me what i'm good at? :)

Talking? I've seen people talked more than me.
Writing? I can't even write a daily post.
Make people laugh? Comedians can do that.
Be a listener? I COULD DO THAT! :)

What i realized - I don't show people that i'm sad. Friends don't label me as emo. I don't think they see my sentimental side either, do they? I put on a smile for whatever situation but when people meet me for the first time, they say i looked snobbish. hmm.. not many have seen me cried. Those who have, its either i'm comfortable with u around or u just happen to be there. Or maybe people don't see that dark side of me is because i don't know how to express my feelings? I'm such a stoner that my face shows nothing? Ahh, maybe thats how i got "stoningfreak" :)

"I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show. And i thought that being strong meant never losing your self-control" - Keith Urban

I think i'm more of an observer. I don't allow myself to be predictable. I predict people! haha but that doesn't mean i judge. Or i judge less. Because i don't want people around me to be judgmental in return.

But then yet again, who can't do what i just said right? All of you could put on a fake smile when u're not in ur best mood. And everyone can be a great listener if they want to too. And not be so judgmental, just step into their shoes and think like them :)

My fortune cookie (no, i don't need my daily dosage of fortune cookies) once said, i'll be a great philanthropist (one who loves mankind, and seeks to promote the good of others) in my later years. Well, thats something encouraging! I hope to be one. At least when i look back someday, i could yell, Hey! i was one helpless lady back then and million lives have been touched by me now =D

I think i know what i need. I need encouraging friends. I want people who say encouraging words and remind me of what i'm good at or what's important to me, what kind of heart that is beating in my chest. I wanna know i'm good and capable in something important. I wanna do something so spectacular that i realize what i want in life. Or rather, my life.

I know we are all worth something. We just need a little of someone to remind us what.

Now did i get you wondering what u're good at yourself? :D After all, whatever that separates us from the rest made us us right? :)